It’s Tuesday. I got back from The Becoming Conference late Saturday night. I am just now starting to feel human again.
I did it!!! I still can’t believe I got up on that stage and spoke. I am so proud of myself, doing something so outside of my box. I was scared, shaking scared, vomit scared, couldn’t sleep scared. But I did it. I spoke three different times Saturday and each time I somehow made it through my talk without fainting on stage. I actually formed words that may have made sense! As soon as I started speaking the peace came. It’s a feeling that I just can’t put into words but as soon as I started speaking the fear just went away and I was filled with complete and total peace. I think all those prayers that I said and that dear friends said for me could be the reason. God was definitely with me, there is no other way that I could have made it though that experience without his strength and guidance. Amazing, truly amazing.
Now that I am home and this HUGE thing is behind me I feel light and free like a butterfly. Sounds cheesy but totally true. After church on Sunday the family and I went out and bought a bike with my hard earned Becoming money. I have been wanting a bike for sometime. I bought one recently from a thrift store but we couldn’t find the right size tires to fix it. So I have been eyeing this bad boy.
Lilly and I went on a picnic last night. We loaded the basket with our books and fastened our dinner and a blanket to the back. I wish I took a picture of us lounging on the quilt eating dinner after our bike ride, but I left my phone behind on purpose. We are planning on riding our bikes with the kids tonight to Jason’s Deli. I just feel so happy and blessed.
I love Fall. Fall makes me want to slow down and enjoy life. Fall makes me want to cook chili in the crock pot, burn my fall scented candles, snuggle under a blanket reading a book, drinking hot tea, spending time with my family. I get this way every year. The thing about fall, it makes me want to simplify my life. It doesn’t help that I have been reading these three books…
I want to get rid of everything I own and move to a barn overlooking the mountains. I want to trade in my mini van for a big ole black truck. I probably won’t move and I won’t get that black truck anytime soon, but I am getting rid of most of my stuff. I can’t explain it but I feel cluttered in my head and I can’t create or relax when I feel cluttered.
I want a simple beautiful life, a life without so much stuff. I am spending the next few weeks purging everything that I don’t absolutely loveeeeeeeeeeeeee. I have mentioned before how much I love clothes. My thrift store and yard sale shopping supports my habit without breaking the bank. However my closet is so jammed packed I can’t even see what I have. Do I really need three pairs of black boots? Nope, one pair should cover it. Do I need 15 sweaters? No it’s Charlotte for pete’s sake, I’m good with 3. I just cleared out 15 dresses that I won’t be wearing. Seriously do I need a dress for everyday of the month? No, maybe two or three to wear to church or to dinner with my man.
On the way to Becoming, Nester and I really got to talking about all the junk that we have collected. It’s good junk, but junk we just don’t need. So mark your calendars for November 17th. Nester and I will be having a BIG SALE in Huntersville, NC. I may sell all my stuff just so I can buy all of her stuff!hahahaha!
More details on the BIG SALE coming soon!!!